File looks thin. But when I printed the EA report out, there is actually a total of 13 pages!!! Well, a very minimal amount of amendments made for tomorrow's EA explains why...
Adeline was on MC today. Was thinking to myself, "Great... Will not be able to leave early already... Darlene have to leave early to do her last minute shopping... Rebecca have to go for her course... Jackie has a meeting to attend at 4pm..." But, after Jackie return from her meeting, it was exactly 5pm!!! YES!!! I was able to leave then...
Went to Suntec City's Giordano to buy a top, followed by a skirt at Iora. =) Then, walked over to Bugis. Spotted Francessca, Darlene and her boyfriend at the traffic junction of Shaw Tower. Managed to escape from their sight... I guess...
Was happily shopping in Bugis Junction while waiting for him when suddenly, I spotted them AGAIN!!! This time round, it was in Parco. They were talking about the v8 movie cafe which they just walked pass. I stood there for a moment. Then my legs just turn back and I walked away as hurriedly as I can. Wonder if they saw me then...
When he finally came, we just walked round Parco before heading to Swensen's for dinner. God must let me bump into them again!!! They were having dinner in a restaurant. When I spotted them, Francessca was at that point of time turning her head. Her back was facing us... Darlene was facing us... Guess this time round, they have seen me and him already. Thinking of a story to cook up for Darlene tomorrow...
Shared 2 plates of pasta, the seafood black pepper pasta and crayfish pasta. The seafood black pepper pasta was meant to be mine and the other was his. However, when his came, he did not like it at all. It was filled with tomato and he HATES tomato... Preferred mine then... Exchanged our plate of food then...
She messaged him. He showed me and explained how come she messaged him what she messaged. My mood was slightly dampened already. Tried to lift my spirits up and pretend nothing has happened earlier. However, as the night pass, I was getting more and more pissed. To the extend that I hurt him AGAIN...
As it was still early when we reached City Hall MRT station, I volunteered to walk him to Raffles Place MRT station. Throughout the walk, my head was facing the ground. No words was spoken at all. I was just in my own world, in my own thoughts... Do not know exaclty what I was thinking about... There were many things in my mind... I was feeling very lost... frustarated... angry... hurt... scared... I SO HATE MYSELF!!!
I suddenly felt that things may end there and then. There was no feeling of connection with him anymore... I could not feel the love that I have been feeling all along already...
I could not tolerate it anymore. Broke down at Raffles Place MRT station, while waiting for the MRT to arrive. He brought me to the other side to cool down and ask me what was wrong. Because of my father? My mother? Him? My answer was just a no. But deep down in my heart, I jolly well know the reason. It was for him, for me, for us...
Asked me to message him the reason for me crying when I reach home. I did just it. Then, went to wash my face. When I came out of the toilet, my handphone was ringing. I knew it is from him. But I did not pick up the call, continued to do my stuff first. After I settled down, I messaged him to say that I was in the toilet just now. Am waiting for his reply still...
I want to get a pair of footwear... earrings... pluck eyebrows (if I am still in time to do so. Everywhere seems to be fully-booked for the New Year already)...
I can see my money vanishing again without me realising it again. What is happening???
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
4:29 PM
My contact lens broke again!!! And the problem lies in my right eye AGAIN!!!
Was on my way to work this morning... My right eye felt like something poking in it. Vision was abit blurred as well. After much rubbing, the lens came off. Realise a portion of it is gone!!! Tried to search in my eye for the missing piece but to no avail...
Headed to the first optician shop I pass by once I reached City Hall MRT station. Already had the thought of not wearing contact lens and wear spectacles instead... Did just that... From tomorrow onwards, no more contact lens for me anymore!!! =) Wonder is a good or bad thing...
He messaged me at around 5pm. M1 called him. Reason? Never pay phone bill again. Called him when he asked me to. Had a stomach pain then. Said it was gastric. Asked him to go to the clinic for a check-up. Said he would. Was thinking of bringing him to one after work if he did not go then. In the end, he asked me to meet him at Raffles Place MRT station after work. He had to go to the Standard Chartered bank over there to withdraw money. We can then go for dinner at the usual Lau Pa Sat again...
I only finished checking EA just before 8pm. Quite alot to check today.
Slightly after 7pm, he messaged me again. His stomach pain is slightly better. We met at City Hall MRT station instead, walk to Lau Pa Sat to eat though. Had prawn satay, cockles fried rice and mee goreng. Besides the satay, the other 2 dishes taste awful. Regretted... Still waiting to go to Malaysia for a seafood feast...
Was not able to go and withdraw money in the end... He had left his ATM card in his uniform pocket last night... Silly you...
Promised me that he will go to the clinic tomorrow... He better do so... If not I will definitely drag him into one tomorrow...
Wonder when he will go and pay his bill. If he does so tomorrow, shall have to think of another present for him already. Settling of his phone bill was part of my plan for his gift actually. Maybe shall give him some money upfront. =)
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
4:18 PM
Went to Thai Express for lunch today with him. He was around City Hall area, shopping for a pair of sports shoes...
Finished checking EA at around 3.30pm. By slightly after 4pm, finish keying in reservations already. Decide to continue to do the labelling of travel agent's contract. However, was hindered by a follow-up and calls. Only manage to complete 1 alphabet and it was 5pm already. Waited for Mei to return, inform her about the result of the follow-up and left.
Thought Adeline really left without me... Headed to the Human Resource Department to hand them some documents Jackie asked me to do so. On my way there, Adeline called. Immediately got scolding from her for not waiting for her...
Met at the locker room. Asked me if I want to go for dinner with her. Settled for dinner at Sake Sushi. A long time since I last went there and out with her.
However, I only ate 2 sushi!!! The rest was chawamushi, fried tofu, soft shell crab, squid, and peach shobet. The desert was DELICIOUS!!! A definite MUST-TRY!!! Stayed there for around 2 hours without realising it...
I knew she had a motive of asking me out for dinner. While talking, she suddenly said, "So what has happened?" I was puzzled... Somehow or rather, I knew what she was driving at... Told her the full story...
Recently, every topic people have with me is about US. Receive comments and advises from them. But what do I really want? I am still at a loss...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
2:37 PM
There was pratically NOTHING to do at work yesterday. Finished checking EA BEFORE LUNCHTIME. As for Darlene and Ein Ein? Finished keying in reservations, clearing faxes and emails also before lunchtime. They did spring cleaning in the office. Preparing for New Year? Mainly because there was no work for them to do then...
As for me? Updated flight details...
After work, went to Bugis. Did a gift for him for Valentines Day as well as for his birthday. However, the picture I took was blurred. Also because of light reflcetion. ***Prays hard that the picture will come out well*** If it does not, no choice... Have to replace the picture with his instead. See how it goes...
Then went to pluck eyebrows. There is no I nouvi already there... Went to get it done at Ross and Roy. Never am I going back there to do it again. Pissed!!!
Headed to Orchard to wait for him. Was suppose to meet him at 5.30pm. However, he said that he will be delayed... Said there is some PROBLEM... Reached there near 7pm!!!
When he arrived, asked him what happened... Guess what he said... HE WAS AT HOME WATCHING MOVIE!!! It was his favouriote movie so he wanted to watch it finish before leaving the house!!! My mood immediately changed... Walked from Orchard MRT station to Far East Plaza with a long face, moody mood. Did not talk to him at all. Although he tried to come up with conversations... Was like that all the way to Lucky Plaza.
He said sorry... Wanted to lie to me say his sister did not let him leave the house. But when he saw me, he could not bring himself to lie to me. Was really mad then. But I thought, just let it pass and forget about everything. We are out to shop for my new year clothes. My mood got better then. But I am still not happy. It is always ME understanding him. Did he ever care to understand me??? Have he ever thought of my feelings?
I asked him that the night before yesterday. Mummy asked me to ask him to go for her birthday dinner I planned for her. Asked him that. He said he working there, do not want. EXCUSE. I can jolly well treat her at a restaurant outside the hotel. Problem solved? Do not know what to say about him already...
The last time we went to Orchard shopping was for his Deepavali. He got lots of clothes then. Now, we are there to shop for my Chinese New Year. However, I bought nothing. My mood was spoilt by him already in the very beginning... DAMN!
Headed to Chinatown. First time seeing Hotel 81. NICE! Did not know it looks so nicely decorated. Not bad... Can be considered a 4 star hotel...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
6:38 AM